Showing posts with label desire. Show all posts
Showing posts with label desire. Show all posts

Sunday, 16 February 2014

Valentine Breath

When I stepped outside my door this Valentine's Day
The daughter of heaven came waltzing down my street
And before I'd taken two paces on my way
She took my side and almost swept me off my feet.

Oh, no! I turned around and tried to get back home
And noticed as I did two bins for recycling
Tossed neatly down upon the wet dark paving stone
"My breath is laced with garlic, it's not your liking!"

So saying, I crossed the threshold warm and waved her out.
But she wouldn't leave, and tearing in the dark unknown
Her icy fingers stretched in every crack about
No let up to her fierce attack, with each creak and moan,

She begged to come and fling me as if I were her kite.
And though I shut her out of sight, ...

                                               still she banged all night.
—okei

Painting: 'Boreas' by John William Waterhouse

Saturday, 1 September 2012

Uncompromising Love

Uncompromising Love
I love you.
I do not love
     your face, your hands, your voice, your words.
I love you!
I do not love you with
     my face, my hands, my voice, my words.
I love you with my whole body,
     the wholeness of you, the you-ness of you, that exotic other
     that loves me, that holds me at heart,
I hold you there too.
I love you, I kiss you,
     every square centimetre of you,
     of my imagination of you,
but is it really you?
or is it a symbol of you that I love?
a symbol of my own creation
     of wholeness, of you-ness, of exotic other.
If it were mere symbol,
then why write these lines to tell you?
except perhaps to keep the symbol alive
filling my whole being with perpetual longing
     that can never be satisfied,
     that is wholly satisfying,
     dangerous
you, I love you!
As dawn heralds the sun,
all my senses are roused
by the thought of your presence,
     haunting me,
I long for the touch of
     your face, your hands, your voice, your poetry,
that I may know you,
as if for the first time
and love you.

—okei (29th August, 2012)

Painting: “He Loves me, He Loves me not…” by Robert Fowler.
Hector said: Okei, how I love your poem. Take care, Hector
okei said: Thank you! Trying to work out what this means myself... The love is uncompromising, but it runs into an existential doubt about who is the Beloved, the "you" that I love. Although the love is whole, the Beloved must be reconstructed because this is the only way to overcome the doubt...in order to check that our idea of the Beloved has not passed into pure imagination... we must experience the parts that make up the whole. And in doing so, we reconstruct our ideal of love also, as in the beginning. So love is continuously being renewed.
Jon said: Indeed. Every time we love, it is the love of All That Is, loving itself. Every desire we have is the desire of the All That Is for itself. 
okei said: Jon, so I take it you prefer the first verse? I agree it's loving the All, but isn't there an uncertainty in the All, a doubt that we really know it? And that doubt can only be overcome by taking apart the All, uncertain of exactly what we will find, and recreating it?
Jon said: I don't think that's possible, Okei. That would make us the subject and The All the object - and, as I understand it, it's the other way round... If life is just a dream and we are the dreamers, then we are subject. But if we are the dreamed, not the dreamers, and if our apparent reality is part of the dream, then we are the object, the receivers of the verb... The very best "explanation" I've ever come across is Perfect, Brilliant Stillness, by David Carse. He had a complete awakening. The book seeks to impart some sense of the reality. I recommend it.
okei said: Thanks for the clarification. And thanks too for the book recommendation!!!
Lin said: ohh... wonderful ..... and you said you didn't get Rumi.
I think you and he both have the same relationship with Love, Beloved
but just express it differently. : )) Just great thanks for sharing.
okei said: Hey, Lin! Thanks so much, and check out this haiku version of one of Rumi's poems which I just did today
http://itsokei.blogspot.co.uk/2012/09/unmarked-boxes-rumi.html

Tuesday, 27 March 2012

Aryadeva on Beauty

Aryadeva was a 3rd century Buddhist monk who believed that our attachments to eternal existence, to pleasure, and to possessing the things we love, obstruct us from realising transcendent truth. Therefore, as for his previous warnings against belief in permanence and pleasure, so he tries to fob off the initiate monk from an obsession for beauty and cleanliness. He speaks merely relative truths in these introductory verses, so that we may awaken to the absolute, and experience life, happiness and beauty as they are in themselves, empty of all conceptual attachment. However, unlike for death and pleasure, the present subject makes for some awful haikus and I have been loathe to share them. Indeed, the very essence of the haiku is beauty which makes the form unsuitable, not to mention that Aryadeva seems overly concerned with the foulness of the (mostly female) body.

Days and nights I spend
On bodily attractions,
Futile in the end.

Subsisting on earth,
One craves earth, thus sense desires
Grow with indulgence.

A woman’s beauty
Is common to all, her sex
Is the same as all.

It’s not her beauty,
But how she appeals to me,
That makes me love her.

How lovely each part!
Isn’t it astonishing
What she means to me?

How virtuous she is!
Touch wood, for though I loathe sin,
No-one is perfect.

Love springs from goodness
Or else it’s a fool’s desire
For false paradise.

“Quarantine woman,”
Some say, “from sin’s temptation,
Or regret love lost.”

Old age brings remorse;
Those careless flings of youth make
Even the wise sad.

One without desires
Needs no pleasures; one caught up
Heeds not life’s pleasures.

My girl isn’t mine
To hide from others when I’m
Not romancing her.

Desire for woman
Ensures pleasure only in
Its consummation.


In a woman’s arms,
Would a man of sense say that
Pleasure came from her?

Scrabbling in the dark,
The sexual act brings relief
Like a bloody itch.


And so it goes on, but I aborted my translation at this point, and have turned all my poetic efforts since to writing praises of beauty to compensate! If you want to read the rest, you will have to look up Chapter 3 of Aryadeva's "Four Hundred Stanzas".

Monday, 23 January 2012

Aryadeva on Pleasure

Ingredients:
This is very loosely based on verses by Aryadeva on the subject of abandoning belief in hedonism. There is an arc to the argument as the imagined author of the haikus gradually changes perspective.

The image is "Diana's Maidens" by Edward Robert Hughes.



Directions:
Though impermanent,
Sustained discipline and care
Keep the body well.

The body’s pleasure
Is transient like a hot wind
Across a river.

Pleasure’s time is short.
Like a burst of summer rain,
Soon no trace remains.

Hunger, cold and pain
Afflict the poor, whilst the high
Suffer from their minds.

Joy cannot withstand
This body subject to pain,
This mind to suffering.

Not really my foe,
The body aches by nature.
Joy comes from elsewhere.

A hull of suffering
Beset by woe, am I still
Devoted to flesh?

Joy’s balm cannot cure
Yet I keep chasing after,
So the wheel goes round.

Joy is ruled by thoughts,
Thoughts are ruled by fear and pain
And nothing rules pain.

Pain’s a cruel master,
Its power ever increasing
With age and sickness.

Causes of pleasure
Are few, and when amplified
Their symptoms painful.

Causes of suffering
Too many, they overwhelm
Joy’s little respite.

Pleasure like a dream
Treads delicate on life’s sands
Footsteps of longing.

When the tide rolls in,
Pathless, which way should I go?
Night’s footsteps effaced.

Life’s little comforts
Mean but death, languishing in
Epicurean sighs.

How can I find ease
When this abode of earth is
Slowly burning up.

In rising waters,
Trapped, alone and breathing death,
Who could find joy then?

The five elements
Find harmonious rhapsody
Through fitful struggle.

I take no pleasure
In my own or others’ pain.
Ill deeds make ill births.

Who would feel delight
Retching in a pot of gold
Rather than of clay?

It seems pleasurable
To ride instead of walking
Since the effort’s less.

To act gives me joy,
Yet acts requires exertion,
Even lying down.

Relief from trouble
Seems to bring joy, yet joy’s source
Never existed.

If joy were so good
At disguising my suffering,
Why not completely?

Seeing my attachment
To things which last not ever,
I’m done with pleasure.

Wednesday, 7 September 2011

Two Sonnets


The Dance of Artemis & Eros

From the cover of shade, eyes blinking,
We can best see out into the light.
So it is that in shadows sinking,
The poet and the Muse relish Night.
The green eyes of a black cat slinking
Pierce the darkness with ethereal might,
Startling a wild deer in sudden fright
That by the waters had been drinking.
Dawn’s caress awakes the circling kite
And the sweethearts who without thinking
Reached precariously in maiden flight
Enter now their new morn, arms linking.
Fragrant petals quiver with delight,
Sprinkling like stars in the wind tonight…


I Listen with the Ears of my Love
 

I listen with the ears of my love—
What tension, what promise, and what lack!
But why write these lines, my long-lost dove,

Unless I should hope to win you back?
Shiver, shiver, for what the heart craves

Its heels unrelenting will set free,
Fire in the belly, rain on the sea,
Ripples that turn into pounding waves.
Blessings trickle at our fingertips
Where the air is fresh and milky dew
Leaves its taste upon the pristine lips
Virtue, Honesty and Laughter knew.
Can you smell the salt earth on their tongues?
Breathe deep, my Love, and revive your lungs!


—okei

Thursday, 1 September 2011

Would You...?

This is a reading of a love sonnet "In the Eyes of Your Desire, Would You...?" accompanied by the piano piece "Danse Bohémienne" by Debussy. The video is of the Spanish sea crashing against the rocks to set the mood and the painting is Ekval's "Fisherman and The Siren".

The poem had its origins in a dream I had a few days ago
(edit: it only occurs to me now that this must have coincided with hurricane Irene in the U.S. which I was not really aware of). There were two seemingly opposing aspects to the dream: "erotic passion" and "the bailing out of water", and my intention over the following days was to try to work some alchemy out of these two base emotions which I realize afterwards to be simply love and fear. I would hope that the result is gender-neutral so the voice of the poem could be either male or female, depending on how we would like to imagine it, and not necessarily one or the other. Perhaps something is lost because of this wish to universalize, but I feel I must. No doubt there is room for further improvement... and exploration... and any ideas are most welcome!




In the Eyes of Your Desire, Would You...?

 
On siren rocks, worn down by cruel seas,
Would you nestle, head arched back, chest bare,
Tempting Fate your carnal lust to please?

Should your longing rise with body fair,
Would you turn away or would you seize
The moment and no seduction spare?

When passion's grip leaves you gasping air,
Would you try to run with shuddering knees
Or would you stay and your passion share?

If you sense your yearning is a tease,
Would you, with wet hands, brush back the hair,
Unveil each round breast and firmly squeeze?

Would you in Love's consummation dare
Stake your life, your all, for Beauty's care?


—okei 

Sunday, 24 July 2011

140 Characters: Double-Haikus

  • The tube is a train
    Packed with people like smarties
    Wrapped in bright paper

    The chairs are a show
    A symbol of politeness
    Just waiting to go

      
  • Like summer kisses,
    We melted in the star light
    Of our racing hearts

    On the sunbathed roof
    It seemed like a good idea
    Until the wasp came.

      
  • The first time they met
    So fresh was the morning dew
    So red the rosebush.

    In the beginning
    She had the same name as all
    But he renamed her.

      
  • I did not come here
    Just to skirt my fingertips
    Around your desire.

    Trees cloaked in moonlight
    Yawn in the April umbra
    Of my longing heart.
      

      
  • Life’s a question mark
    You are the dot in suspense
    And the answer’s Love

    O Breath ephemeral
    Brave nymph of Eternity
    What makes you mindful?
—okei

Friday, 27 May 2011

Romances of Marceline Desbordes-Valmore

One of the most celebrated poets of 19th century French literature, an inspiration to Baudelaire and the whole symbolist movement in poetry, I would like to share my translations of some of the romantic poetry of Marceline Desbordes-Valmore: actress, poet, writer and great lady of letters, born just before the French Revolution. Only a handful of her poems seem to have been translated and published before in English, and only the first of the following as far as I can tell (see here for a lovely alternative translation, blog and photos of the poet), but that is sure to change in the coming years because the omission is so glaring. Having said that, it is understandable that they haven't been translated: her poems are often songs and indeed many were written set to music, so it isn't easy to capture their spirit and the playful language and rhyming. We can but do our best!

These were all written in the early 1800s. If you click on the titles, they link to the original French. I'd love to hear which ones you like, suggested improvements, corrections etc.


Separated Hearts

Don’t write. I’m sad and pensive, burning up my fire.
Bright summers without you are like a darkened room.
My arms clasped tight again, but not with their desire.
Beating at my heart is like beating at a tomb.
          Do not write!

Don’t write. Let us learn only to die to our flame.
Ask but God… ask but yourself, if I loved you!
Plunged into your absence, to know you feel the same
Is to hear of heaven, yet never climb there too.
          Do not write!

Don’t write. I fear your presence, lest my memory sink
So long she kept your voice, so often she recalls.
Don’t take me to the fountainhead where I can’t drink
The living portrait painted by a lover’s scrawls.
          Do not write!

Don’t write those sweet words which I dare no longer read
I feel your voice smothering them over my heart
And burnished across your smile, engulfing my need.
It seems that every kiss would stamp them on my heart.
          Do not write!


Confession Allowed

Come, my dear Olivier, I have three words to say to you
My mother has allowed it, she said they’d bring you joy.
Well, I dare no longer, but tell me, can you read?
My mother has allowed it, look into my eyes.

Here you see my downcast eyes. God! how I’m confused!
My cheeks have gone red. Can you see, it’s because I’m shy.
My mother has allowed it; you will be excused;
While I’m blushing, put your hand upon my heart.

How your air of worry torments and touches me!
These three words are so delicate! my heart says them so well!
You do not understand? take them then on my mouth;
I’ll close my eyes, take, but don’t talk to me about them.

 

First Love

Do you remember that young friend
With tender eyes, her expression wise and sweet?
Almost, alas! at the spring of her life,
Her heart feeling that it was made for you.

About to make a confession, about to make an empty promise,
Still so young, one knows them not.
Her soul pure and drunk with passion
Delivering itself without shame or struggle.

She lost her darling idol.
Happiness so sweet lasted but a day!
She is no more at the spring of her life.
She is already in love for the first time.

 

The Waking    ...a better rhyming translation in my next post!

On this bed of reeds, can I fall asleep again?
I feel the fragrant air surrounding your body.
Your mouth is a flower whose perfume devours:
Come closer, oh my treasure! and burn only me.
          Wake up! Wake yourself up!

But this breath of love, this kiss that I long for
On your lips, I still dare not relish it
With your heart’s consent, my life would double
Your sleep goes on, because of you I’m dying.
          I dare not relish it.

Come under the banana trees, we shall find some shade.
The birds will sing at the sight of our lovers’ play
The sun is jealous, it hides itself behind a cloud
And it is in your eyes only that I seek the day.
          Come set alight my love.

No, no you sleep no more, you share my flame
Your kisses are the honey that produces our blossom
Your heart lets out a sigh; will you come look for my spirit?
Here it is on my mouth; it would dry out your tears.
          Hide me under blossom.

 


To Poetry

O sweet Poetry!
Covered in flowers and lace
The sad dream
That makes tears run down my face;
My tender soul
Hurts still with its deceit.
I want to wait no more
For my amorous pleasures.

Give to the lines of my lyre
A good-natured colour,
Your grace to my madness,
Your charm to my heartache.
Would that the dark cloud
That cloaks my destiny
Flee like a shadow
At your divine sign.

Be ever attentive
To my mournful songs;
With a fearful modesty
Sheathe my confessions.
Hide that burning Error
That threatens my happiness:
But, O God! how slow she is
To leave my heart.

Tuesday, 14 December 2010

On the Beauty of Hair (Apuleius)

This is my version of Apuleius’ eulogy on hair (~170 AD). For the original extract, see my review of The Golden Ass, the picaresque novel from which this is taken.




On the Beauty of Hair

I love a woman’s head and hair.
When first a girl catches my eye,
There’s little else for I would care!
Her flowing locks, I foremost spy.

So when time comes for me to leave,
I have a picture in my head
And need not stolen pleasures grieve
When I retire myself to bed.

My habit’s based on reason sound:
That hair is always on display
A bright adornment all year round
Like spring’s bright clothing worn in May.

But hair is even prouder still,
For as every young lady knows,
Her body without wrap or frill
In nakedness her beauty shows.

Even the brightest thread of gold
Has less charm than her naked flesh,
Which delicate she would unfold
To stir the loins of passion’s thresh.

And may none try what will be said,
Excusing me this reckless thought,
But should a beauty shave her head,
Her splendid face would come to nought.

Should she even float from heaven,
Or like Venus, be born from foam,
Smelling fragrant as cinnamon,
Graces and Cupids on the roam,

Even dripping in rich balsam,
Love’s girdle clasped around her waist,
Still, in baldness, she’d have no charm,
Not even to her husband’s taste.

This natural framing for the face,
What joy it is to see its hue,
Caught directly in sunlight’s brace
Or dancing every moment new.

Shade and shine changing with the light,
First gold, then honey sparkling through,
Or raven black and dark as night,
Then glorious tints of dove-neck blue.

Apply a lotion from the East
That gives the hair a glossy shine
And like a mirror at a feast,
On beauty doubled love can dine.

Bunched up in a luxurious bun,
Or flowing rippling down her spine,
A woman’s hair, however done,
Surpasses every jewel fine.

Monday, 13 December 2010

The Golden Ass - Apuleius

Rating:★★★★★
Category:Books
Genre: Literature & Fiction
Author:Greek Farce with a Spiritual Twist
Originally entitled "The Metamorphoses", and said to be inspired by a lost work in Greek of the same name, “The Golden Ass” by Apuleius (born 125 A.D.) has the distinction of being the only complete novel in Latin to survive into the modern era. It is also the first instance of a picaresque novel that became such a popular genre in medieval times; the protagonist is an anti-hero beset by ill fortune as he stumbles from one misadventure to another, but is ultimately redeemed. This form of story, combining realism with fantasy, provided authors the opportunity to lay bare the flaws and vices of society under the guise of the fantastical whose proposed purpose is only to humour and entertain.

This book is certainly entertaining, packed with stories and overheard sub-stories, ranging from the sexual to the mythological, the cruel to the magical, as the protagonist in his desire to be initiated into magic finds himself mistakenly turned into an ass, suffering terribly from and bringing ill fate to his successive owners. Evil masters, unfaithful wives, lecherous lovers and deceitful priests in particular all come to wicked ends. From his asinine state, he is ultimately saved by Isis, the supreme mother goddess of many names, who hears his prayers to the moon, comes to him in a dream and instructs him how to regain his human form.

The original Latin is incredibly difficult and hard to translate. Early translators often left out the bawdy scenes that might offend sensitive readers. Robert Graves, whose translation I was reading, gives a more complete rendition in easy and flowing English. More recent translators, meanwhile, have sought to capture the rollicking and racy sound of the original, but this is not so easy.

Highlights of the book include the intricate telling of the legend of Cupid and Psyche, the extolling of the beauty of women’s hair, and the dream imagery of the goddess Isis (see extracts below for the latter two). Many believe that Apuleius himself was initiated into the cult of Isis and that his mystical "eleventh book", which stands rather in contrast to the rest, is partly autobiographical, especially since he mistakenly (or intentionally) conflates his protagonist's home town with his own and makes him a barrister in Rome like he had been. He was certainly fascinated with magic, and much of what we know of him is from a defence he wrote against the accusation that he had won his wife's love by magical means, which he strongly denied. Born like St. Augustine in a rich Roman province in North Africa, he travelled widely before returning home. As well as magic, he was also fascinated with dreams, and the truths that come through dreams that reveal the subterfuges and deceptions of people and provide the answers to problems in reality. Indeed, the whole book has the atmosphere of a dream.

We are left wondering if despite initial appearances this might actually be a religious text among followers of Isis, which would account for its preservation? If so, there would certainly be a symbolic structure to the whole, like the journey of the fool represented by the tarot, or the stages of man. Looking online, despite the expansive literary work on Apuleius’ novel, the proposed explanations of such a structure seem speculative at best. However, it is interesting that the protagonist Lucius, and the servant-girl Photis whom he initially falls in love with, both have names symbolic of light. Isis meanwhile emerges from the sea in Lucius’ dream on the night of the full moon and bears a light on her brow. This image is reminiscent of Venus, herself the goddess of love. Conversely, Cupid only visits his wife Psyche by cover of darkness so when her curiosity gets the better of her and she shines a lamp as he sleeps, it is through light, representing knowledge, and a spark that burns him, representing lust, that the lovers are torn apart. So which is the true light? Apuleius’ answer no doubt is not Photis nor Psyche nor Venus, not magic or knowledge or lust, but the supreme Isis.  Indeed he portrays Venus in the story of Cupid and Psyche, as jealous of her mortal rival, unlike Isis, the real-Venus, his saviour from the baseness of humanity, the corruption of religion, the curiosity of magic, and the winds of ill fortune that he came to know as an ass.

So how to distinguish the real? If we compare the slave-girl Photis, representative of Venus, with whom Lucius falls in love, and Isis whom he ends up worshipping, the form of love is very different. Photis’ love is highly sexual, described with the imagery of gladiatorial combat, as she urges him on to have the courage to fight her through the night, while Lucius meanwhile complains of having been standing at arms all day and how his bow is so tightly strung that he feels it might snap. Isis’ love, by contrast, is peaceful, platonic and regal, demanding patience, chastity, faith and resignation to honour and serve her.

But for Apuleius, it was all about hair! (Or rather this is my opportunity to quote him and give you a flavour of the book.)

Photis ties her hair up in a knot (which she only undoes in the bedroom at Lucius’ request):

'It's only a woman's head and her hair that I'm really interested in. It's what I like to feast my eyes on first in the street, and then enjoy in private indoors. There are good and positive reasons for this preference. The hair is the dominant part of the body: it's placed in the most obvious and conspicuous position and is the first thing we notice. The rest of the body achieves its effect through brightly coloured clothes, the hair through its natural sheen. In fact most women, when they want to show off their personal attractions, discard their clothes altogether and remove all covering, eager to display their beauty naked, and reckoning that rosy skin will please better than gold fabric. If on the other hand -- though it's blasphemy even to mention it, and I devoutly hope that such a thing will never happen to make the point -- if you were to despoil the head of even the most beautiful of women of its hair and rob her face of its natural adornment, though she had come down from heaven, though she had been born from the sea and reared among the waves, I say though she were Venus herself, escorted by her choir of all the Graces and the whole tribe of Cupids, wearing her cestus, fragrant with cinnamon and dripping with perfumes -- if she were bald, not even her husband would love her. Then there is the fascination of its colour and sheen: now vivid enough to outshine the rays of the sun, now gently reflecting them; or varying its charm as its colour varies and contrasts – sometimes bright gold shading down into pale honey, sometimes raven-black with dark blue highlights like those on the necks of doves; or when, perfumed with Arabian essences and delicately parted, it is gathered behind to give back to the lover's gaze a more flattering reflection; or again when it is so abundant that it is piled high on top of the head, or so long that it flows right down the back. In a nutshell, hair is so important that whatever adornments a woman may appear in – gold, jewels, fine clothes – unless she's made the most of her hair, you can't call her properly dressed. As for my dear Photis, it wasn't that she had taken great pains with her hairstyle – it was its casualness that was so fetching. Her luxuriant tresses were carelessly flung back, hanging down her neck and over her shoulders; where they just touched the upper edge of her tunic she had gently looped them up and gathered the ends together into a knot on the top of her head.'

But Isis wears her hair loose.


‘Not long afterwards I awoke in sudden terror. A dazzling full moon was rising from the sea. It is at secret hour that the Moon-goddess, sole sovereign of mankind, is possessed of her greatest power and majesty. She is the shining deity by whose divine influence not only all beasts, wild and tame, but all inanimate things as well, are invigorated; whose ebbs and flows control the rhythm of all bodies whatsoever, whether in the air, on earth, or below the sea. Of this I was well aware, and therefore resolved to address the visible image of the goddess, imploring her help; for Fortune seemed at last to have made up her mind that I had suffered enough and to be offering me a hope of release.
  Jumping up and shaking off my drowsiness, I went down to the sea to purify myself by bathing in it. Seven times I dipped my head under the waves—seven, according to the divine philosopher Pythagoras, is a number that suits all religious occasions—and with joyful eagerness, though tears were running down my hairy face, I offered this soundless prayer to the supreme Goddess:
  “Blessed Queen of Heaven, whether you are pleased to be known as Ceres, the original harvest mother who in joy at the finding of your lost daughter Proserpine abolished the rude acorn diet of our forefathers and gave them berad raised from the fertile soil of Eleusis; or whether as celestial Venus, now adored at sea-girt Paphos, who at the time of the first Creation coupled the sexes in mutual love and so contrived that man should continue to propagate his kind for ever; or whether as Artemis, the physician sister of Phoebus Apollo, reliever of the birth pangs of women, and now adored in the ancient shrine at Ephesus; or whether as dread Proserpine to whom the owl cries at night, whose triple face is potent against the malice of ghosts, keeping them imprisoned below earth; you who wander through many sacred groves and are propitiated with many different rites—you whose womanly light illumines the walls of every city, whose misty radiance nurses the happy seeds under the soil, you who control the wandering course of the sun and the very power of his rays—I beseech you, by whatever name, in whatever aspect, with whatever ceremonies you deign to be invoked, have mercy on me in my extreme distress, restore my shattered fortune, grant me repose and peace after this long sequence of miseries. End my sufferings and perils, rid me of this hateful four-footed disguise, return me to my family, make me Lucius once more. But if I have offended some god of unappeasable cruelty who is bent on making life impossible for me, at least grant me one sure gift, the gift of death.”
   When I had finished my prayer and poured out the full bitterness of my oppressed heart, I returned to my sandy hollow, where once more sleep overcame me. I had scarcely closed my eyes before the apparition of a woman began to rise from the middle of the sea with so lovely a face that the gods themselves would have fallen down in adoration of it. First the head, then the whole shining body gradually emerged and stood before me poised on the surface of the waves. Yes, I will try to describe this transcendent vision, for though human speech is poor and limited, the Goddess herself will perhaps inspire me with poetic imagery sufficient to convey some slight inkling of what I saw.
   Her long thick hair fell in tapering ringlets on her lovely neck, and was crowned with an intricate chaplet in which was woven every kind of flower. Just above her brow shone a round disc, like a mirror, or like the bright face of the moon, which told me who she was. Vipers rising from the left-hand and right-hand partings of her hair supported this disc, with cars of corn bristling beside them. Her many-colored robe was of finest linen; part was glistening white, part crocus-yellow, part glowing red and along the entire hem a woven bordure of flowers and fruit clung swaying in the breeze. But what aught and held my eye more than anything else was the deep black luster of her mantle. She wore it slung across her body from the right hip to the left shoulder, where it was caught in a knot resembling the boss of a shield; but part of it hung in innumerable folds, the tasseled fringe quivering. It was embroidered with glittering stars on the hem and everywhere else, and in the middle beamed a full and fiery moon.
   In her right hand she held a bronze rattle, of the sort used to frighten away the God of the Sirocco; its narrow rim was curved like a sword-kit and three little rods, which sang shrilly when she shook the handle, passed horizontally through it. A boat-shaped gold dish hung from her left hand, and along the upper surface of the handle writhed an asp witch pulled throat and head raised ready to strike. On her divine feet were slippers of palm leaves, the emblem of victory.
   All the perfumes of Arabia floated into my nostrils as the Goddess deigned to address me: “You see me here, Lucius, in answer to your prayer. I am Nature, the universal Mother, mistress of all the elements, primordial child of time, sovereign of all things spiritual, queen of the dead, queen also of the immortals, the single manifestation of all gods and goddesses that are. 
   My nod governs the shining heights of Heaven, the wholesome sea-breezes the lamentable silences of the world below. Though I am worshipped in many aspects, known by countless names, and propitiated with all manner of different rites, yet the whole round earth venerates me.
   The primeval Phrygians call me Pessinuntica, Mother of the gods; the Athenians, sprung from their own soil, call me Cecropian Artemis; for the islanders of Cyprus I am Paphian Aphrodite; for the archers of Crete I am Dictynna; for the trilingual Sicilians, Stygian Proserpine; and for the Eleusinians their ancient Mother of the Corn.
  ”Some know me as Juno, some as Bellona of the Battles; others as Hecate, others again as Rhamnubia, but both races of Ethiopians, whose lands the morning sun first shines upon, and the Egyptians who excel in ancient learning and worship me with ceremonies proper to my godhead, call me by my true name, namely, Queen Isis.”’

Lucius meanwhile is called up to three rites of initiation through his dreams and ends up shaving his head completely!

Thursday, 2 December 2010

Stringed Orchestra’s Limericks (Anonymous)


It’s getting cold now,
So let these playful verses
Offer light relief.

Enjoy love’s music,
But don’t ever imagine
That it’s original.

Passion plays the strings.
If you know his ways, you’ll know
His tune is stolen.






There was a young guitar player called Santo
Who was seduced by a girl who did panto.
As she lay in his arms,
She signalled with her palms,
“Second movement: adagio ma non tanto”.
~*~
There was a violinist from Rio
Who came home with a young girl called Cleo.
As she slipped off her panties,
She said, “No andantes,
I want this allegro con brio.”
~*~

There was a young girl whose frigidity
Approached cataleptic rigidity,
But if you gave her a harp,
Then she’d play Mahler’s C-sharp
And melt in complaisant liquidity.
~*~

There was a young lutist called Rick
Who took a girl home for a flick.
When the action ended,
   She drooled, “That was splendid,
But the climax was awfully quick.”
~*~


The cellist named Don would invite
    Young sopranos home for the night.
He tested out a few keys
Till her arias became pleas
To quit practice and sleep before light.

In slumber entwined before long
She laughed in her dream at her song,
But sunlight’s warm greeting
Awoke her heart beating
That the way he had played her was wrong.

She looked at him sleep by her side
And thought how she loved his great pride,
Then chose not to linger,
Nor relish the finger
That beckoned her on for the ride.
  

Saturday, 27 November 2010

Buddha on Desire


Ingredients:
Sayings of Buddha on "Desire".
Rendered in haiku form.

This is twenty-fourth in the series.

The image is "La Pia de’ Tolomei" by Dante Gabriel Rossetti inspired by a reference in Dante's Purgatorio.

 



Directions:
Should you sleep, desire
Will grow and suffocate you
Like a forest vine.

Like a chimpanzee,
You jump and swing, tree to tree,
Seeking out new fruit.

Drowning in desire,
Your sorrows swell in this world
Like grass after rain.

Drown this strong desire
And sorrow drops like droplets
From a lotus flower.

So, dear gentlemen,
Who are gathered here today,
Dig up sorrow’s roots.

Cut away the grass
That obscures the fragrant root
And crush its fragrance.

Don’t let death break you
Time and again like the floods
Break the helpless reeds.

If the roots hold firm,
A felled tree may grow again,
So too with sorrow.

Thirty-six streams flow
Each tempting to your senses
To sweep you away.

Vain imaginings,
Fantasies born of passion,
Beware their wrong views.

Thirty-six streams flow.
If you're seduced by their charms,
They’ll swallow you up.

Six doors, six objects,
When you see desire fixing,
Burn it with insight.

Beset by desire,
Man’s craving becomes his joy,
His joy, his craving.

Hunters of pleasure
Find themselves like hunted hares
Caught by their own lust.

Like the hunted hare
Who wishes back its freedom,
Burn the roots of lust.

Out of the hollow,
You find yourself on the path.
Why do you rush back?

Desire's a hollow.
Why would one who was once free,
Give up his freedom?

Iron, wood and rope
Do not bind as strong as love
For gems, kids and wife.

Love for lady fair,
What more beautiful desire?
Yet hard to escape.

The wise break all bonds
That tempt desire with pleasure
And renounce the world.

Oh, slave of desire!
Poor spider, caught in its web,
Can you leave the stream?

Give up past, future,
Here to the unconditioned,
Beyond life and death.

Watch your lustful thoughts.
Observe your passionate feelings.
What draws in your gaze?

Careful what you wish,
Lest wishes become stronger
And become desires.

The wise calm their thoughts,
Meditate on their feelings,
And Truth sets them free.

The enlightened one,
Free from fears, desires and wrongs,
Strips life’s rose of thorns.

Free from attachments,
Knowings meanings, groups and lists,
He’s the ultimate.

I’ve overcome all.
I know all. I am detached,
Free from evil roots.

I’ve given up all,
Seen for myself the four truths,
Who then has taught me?

Truth exceeds all gifts,
Supreme in taste and delight,
Clearing all desire.

Wealth harms the foolish
Who, thirsting for it, destroy
Themselves and others.

Wealth harms not the wise,
Who seek only the far shore,
So do not taste it.

Weeds damage the crop,
But water crops free from weeds
And the yield is good.

Lust damages all,
But give to those free from lust,
And the yield is good.

Hate damages all,
But give to those without hate,
And the yield is good.

Weeds spoil fertile fields,
But sow the field without weeds,
And the yield is good.

Ignorance spoils all,
But give to the sagacious,
And the yield is good.

Avarice spoils all,
But give to the generous
And the yield is good.

Monday, 4 October 2010

Buddha on The Fool


Ingredients:
Sayings of Buddha on "The Fool".
Rendered in haiku form.

This is fifth in the series.

The image is "The Fool" from the "Elf of Heaven" tarot.


Directions:
Long are sleepless nights,
Long are weary roads, long till
The Fool finds the Way.

Make friends with the wise,
But travel rather alone
Than be with a fool.

“My children, my wealth!”
So frets the fool, not grasping
Even his own self.

Know your foolishness!
The fool who thinks he is wise
Is a fool indeed.

Next to a master,
A fool may live all his life,
Not finding the Way.

A spoon can’t taste soup,
But alert to the master,
The tongue tastes the soup.

The fool’s biggest foe
Is himself, blind to his wrongs
That bear bitter fruit.

A deed not well done
Is one repented after.
Why bring yourself tears?

Only deeds well done,
That later you won’t regret,
Fill you up with joy.

When the fool does wrong,
How sweet before wrong bears fruit,
How bitter after!

As fresh milk turns sour
In time, the fool’s wrongs light up
Like embers and burn.

An ascetic fool
May eat with a grass blade’s tip,
But still be a fool.

What a fool may learn
Will only make his wits blunt,
Severing his head.

The fool thirsts for praise,
To be put before others
And over others.

"Let them know my work,"
The fool longs in swelling pride,
"Let them look to me."

Follow not the fool’s
Way to pleasure, riches, fame.
Your way is different.

Seek not worldly gain,
But in detached solitude
Resolve to be free.

Saturday, 2 October 2010

Buddha on Flowers


Ingredients:
Sayings of Buddha on "Flowers".
Rendered in haiku form.

This is fourth in the series.


The painting is by Odilon Redon. I know very little about him, but he also painted the "Red Boat with Blue[?!] Sail" in my avatar.


Directions:
Who will examine
This earthen body as if
Examining flowers?

Who will delve beyond
The kingdoms of men and gods
In search of rare truths?

You shall do all this,
And on the path of truth find
Flowers beyond compare.

Froth on a wave’s crest,
An evanescent mirage,
Such is this body.

Mind out the three flowers
Of pleasure, will and knowledge.
Their gifts are fleeting.

Flowers hide arrows.
Shun their allure and move on
Like fish shunning bait.

Picking and choosing
Flowers in the garden of life,
The vase stays empty.

Vainly loitering,
Death will sweep him up, like floods
A sleeping village.

As the bee collects
Nectar, not harming the flower,
So the wise should live.

Do not watch others,
Of their deeds or of their faults.
Judge only yourself.

No use to oneself
Is beauty without fragrance,
Words without practice.

How joyful to have
Flowers beautiful and fragrant,
Words lived in practice!

Flowers make fine garlands.
So too the wise can arrange
Their wealth to do good.

No scent blows upwind,
No fragrance of flower or tree,
Except for virtue.

Sandalwood smells fine,
Rosebay, jasmine, lotus too,
But virtue’s supreme.

Desire afflicts not
The virtuous and mindful ones,
Their way free from dust.

How sweet the lotus
That has emerged out of mud
To share its perfume.

Like one awakened,
Emerging among the blind,
May you too shine forth.

Friday, 1 October 2010

Buddha on Mind


Ingredients:
Sayings of Buddha on "Mind".
Rendered in haiku form.

This is the third in the series continuing on from


1. Buddha on Choices
2. Buddha on Mindfulness

The image by Frederic Leighton is Perseus on the winged horse Pegasus riding to the rescue of Andromeda, and the horse seems to me to both represent the energetic power and the restlessness of mind.


Directions:
As arrow-makers
Make their arrows straight, the wise
Direct their stray thoughts.

Thoughts thrash and quiver
Like a fish out of water,
Stranded from desire.

When the mind trembles,
Focus it on just one thing
In meditation.

Guard only your mind.
It is a slippery nymph,
Supple and absurd.

Thoughts wander at will,
But the master controls them.
This brings happiness.

The mind wanders far,
But the master reins it in
And ends its wandering.

Mind is not matter;
It lies within the chamber
Of your hidden heart.

The mind that is trained
Will find the way to freedom
And will not waver.

The mind that wavers
Will never fill with knowledge
And will lose its way.

The vigilant mind,
Free of judgment and impulse,
Sees and understands.

This bodily form,
Though weak like an earthen jar,
The mind keeps it safe.

In every hardship,
Make of your mind a castle
Fortified with love.

Guard the mind’s castle
With the light of knowledge held
Without attachment.

Before long, alas,
The body will pass away,
Mindless as a log.

A thief or rival
May harm you, but not as much
As your wayward mind.

Mastering your own mind
Will help you, more even than
Father or mother.

Wednesday, 29 September 2010

Buddha on Choices


Ingredients:
Sayings of the Buddha (5th century BC) on "Choices".
The Buddha needs no introduction, lol.
Rendered in haiku form.

The image is "Choosing" by George Frederic Watts.


Directions:
We are what we think,
Arising out of our thoughts,
Our thoughts make the world.

Speak with impure mind
And trouble will follow you
As the wheel the ox.

We are what we think,
Arising out of our thoughts,
Our thoughts make the world.

Acting with pure mind,
Happiness will follow you,
Your faithful shadow.

“Look how he abused,
Cast me down, beat and robbed me.”
Thinking this, we hate.

“Look how he abused,…”
Stop and abandon such thoughts.
Stopping them, you love.

Hate is never good
For hate begets more hatred
And so it goes on.

Hate is healed by love,
Not hate; this is an ancient
And eternal law.

You too shall perish.
Knowing we shall both perish,
How can you quarrel?

Lost in the senses,
Like a frail tree in the wind,
You’ll be uprooted.

Master of yourself,
In the winds of temptation,
You’ll be a mountain.

He whose thoughts are stained,
Unmindful and deceitful,
May not wear the robes.

He whose thoughts are clear,
Mindful in his truthfulness,
He may wear the robes.

Ignorant of truth,
He who follows his desire
Overlooks the heart.

Seeing true and false,
He who looks into his heart
Follows his nature.

As rain penetrates
An ill-thatched roof, so does lust
Penetrate the mind.

He with impure mind
Suffers here and hereafter,
More so seeing his wrongs.

Sheltered by pure mind,
He rejoices in both worlds,
More so seeing his good.

Whatever you read,
Or speak of scripture, what good
If you do not act?

Are you a shepherd
Who counts another man’s sheep
But does not lead them?

Read little, speak less,
But act in truth, forsaking
Lust, hate and folly.

Knowing truth, mind freed,
In peace here and hereafter,
Share by example.

Saturday, 11 September 2010

Tamara Drewe (UK, 2010)

Rating:★★★★
Category:Movies
Genre: Comedy

Set in the English countryside among cows, cakes and aspiring writers on retreat, this quasi-comedy follows the story of the girl who made her dreams come true in London returning, now as a beautiful young woman, to the place she grew up with a splat and with a splash. She writes a column about fashion and celebrity for a London magazine and wants to turn her eye now to autobiography and in the same style of baring all, expurgate herself of her sad memories growing up. Directed by Stephen Frears of “Dirty Pretty Things”, this film though too dark and sleazy to be outright comedy and too stereotypical to be arthouse, nevertheless has the energy of a cartoon strip on which apparently it was based.

Though deep as ditch-water, it’s fun, funny and incredibly well-done. For beneath the shallowness is the rich and humorous soil of passion and intrigue, sense of belonging and resentment, deceit and integrity and the striking parallels between characters, young and old, past and present, newly-rich and established country folk, even fictional and real, and culminating in a satisfying sense of natural justice. Finally, the camera-work is brilliant and there’s a splendid rock soundtrack.

This film was funded by the UK Film Council. It’s terribly sad that as a result of government cutbacks, the UK Film Council will no longer be funding British film, and without this funding such quality productions as this one or “Slumdog Millionaire”, “The Wind that Shakes the Barley”, “Bright Young Things”, “Touching the Void” or “Man on Wire” might never make the light of day in future.

Saturday, 4 September 2010

Third Noble Truth (Interactive): which drinks make you drunk?

This is a continuation of the following earlier posts on the First and Second Noble Truths:


The first of the five faculties in Buddhism is faith. It is the starting point of every religious and spiritual tradition. It is not blind faith, but conviction or self-confidence. It is the ability to make a choice. 

That which is sweet first is bitter,
That which is bitter first is sweet.
To each a choice, then it all depends
On effort and unflagging will
To reach the city of your choice.

–Lalla

The city of our choice is not something concrete, or an intention of the ego. Rather, it is abstract, pure intent, a choice of the heart. Choices of the heart are always abstract. The path of heart may be difficult at first – there is nothing concrete to hold onto (it is a letting go) – but in the long run it will always turn out more pleasant.

When this faculty of faith is developed, it becomes a powerful force. It becomes the first power. To do good is to be faithful to abstract intent. To do evil is to be waylaid and distracted along the path.

And what causes us to be waylaid?

Before we try to answer that question, we recall the Buddhist paradigm (discussed in the Interactive First Noble Truth) of first examining the nature, before turning to the origin or cause, then looking at the purpose or consequence, and finally at the way to proceed. What is the nature of being waylaid? We might recall the five hindrances of day-dreaming, boredom, doubt, ill-will and agitation. But, in short, it is the interference of the mind that causes us to deviate from the straight path. Metaphorically, it is drunkenness. And what causes drunkenness? It is drink. With wisdom of which drinks have this effect, what is the consequence of abstaining from those drinks? It is sobriety or clarity. And finally, the way to proceed along with faith, with wisdom and with “effort and unflagging will”, is clearly to be mindful as to what we drink.

We can’t go to two cities at once! That would be called “seeing double”, a true sign of drunkenness. It is a clichĂ© of Zen: when you do X, just do X; when you do Y, just do Y. Some students after long instruction of this by their Zen master were shocked to see him eating breakfast and reading the newspaper at the same time. “What’s the problem?” he replied to them. “When you eat and read, just eat and read.” Right then, that’s all the jokes done with. The rest will be all suffering. Actually, the cessation of suffering. It's no joking matter, lol.

Even if we have wisdom and refrain from the drink that causes drunkenness, still the craving for that drink remains and will cause suffering if not addressed. The craving is itself an interference of the mind, or a drink that we’d do well to refrain from. As we learnt in the Interactive Second Noble Truth, we must go to the root, and the root of that which disturbs peace of mind, or gives rise to dukkha, is tanha, the thirst and attachment to those drinks that lead us away from our city into the vineyards of drunkenness.

But again we ask, which drinks are these that lead us astray? 

Because this wisdom will get us a long way to avoiding them. If we recognize something as an unwanted attachment or addiction, then this recognition is the first step in helping us to be rid of it. It will give us the gift of disillusionment in that which causes us to suffer. If it is a strong addiction though, disillusionment won’t necessarily be enough to change our behaviour. Then we might try transference, and swap our craving for one drink with craving for another. We do this all the time in most interesting ways, for example doing things which give us pleasure to cancel or make up for that which gives us pain. We can all see this in our towns, how the evening and weekend binges release all the tension built up over the course of the day and week. Or at a more moderate level, how food and exercise are great relievers of stress. This is all well and good, but we may come to notice in time how pleasure and pain create patterns, some of which may distract us from the city of our choice. And the drunkenness borne of pleasure is the harder of the two to shake… because it feels so good! What if we didn’t or couldn’t transfer our craving or act on it in some way? I would call this “sucking it up” or cessation. Our capacity for cessation is much greater than we imagine it to be. But if the pain is too great, or we lack resolve, we might not succeed and this might discourage us completely. Our response might be avoidance, escape, sleep, cessation from the path altogether. This may do as a stop-gap to buy us time, but ultimately we must embrace life and face up to our cravings. And whether we employ disillusionment, transference or cessation, there is a seed of wisdom whose contemplation is at the heart of the Third Noble Truth: in the fullness of time, all that arises will also cease.

In the game of intent, we must surrender the battles that fuel our drunkenness – neither win them nor lose them, but realize their cessation – in order to win the war. Only when our desire aligns perfectly with our intent, when all other cravings are vanquished or by transference replaced by our true desire, all mind-addictions ceased or replaced by the addiction to Dhamma, and all our love unified in the name of Love, then are we truly on our way to the city of our choice!

For the third time I ask, which are these battles which fuel our drunken state and waste our energy?

I would say: all that does not belong to the city of our choice, all that is not of Truth, all that is not of the Heart, all that is not the drink of the Beloved. Could I be less abstract? More practically useful? I will think more on it… how about you? The questions I’ve been sizing up in this blog may be summarized as follows:

1. What is the city of your choice?

2. What leads you away from the city of your choice?

3. How do you vanquish that which leads you away from the city of your choice?

Let the real work begin! Buddha’s Third Noble Truth encourages us that absolute success is possible and may we set about realizing it. May all answers that you seek come to you, and may they be an expression of “heart”.

I pass the blog over to you! As always, your criticism and feedback is dearly welcomed, and I look forward to hearing your thoughts on these questions.